I want to learn how to cook

I really want to learn how to cook, especially something to do with baking. I don't really have a proper oven in my house so I never have an opportunity to try to bake if I really wanted. Last time I tried something with it, my oven started letting off some smoke even though there was barely any heat yet... I don't cook very much but it's fun when I decide to. I'm not very good though :/. I tried to flip and egg today but I failed and ended up folding it(I usually just scramble eggs)... I'm also a bit paranoid when I crack an egg. I'm scared that it might crack and open up everywhere if I crack it too hard or that eggshells might get in. In the end I always crack it way too soft and it doesn't open up properly. It's quite embarrassing having trouble with eggs. There isn't much to cook with though since I never go out and buy ingredients. Even when I do go out, I don't buy ingredients since I never really think about wanting to cook stuff at the time. 

On another note, I fucken hate cockroaches. They are so bloody scary. I piss myself really bad when I see one. Today, there was a cockroach on my desk. Right in front of me. Pretty much 30-50cm from my face. I pretty much jumped out of my chair and shat myself. I left my room and came back with spray and it was still there. I tried spraying it but then it ran away into the maze of books and other shit I have on my desk. I was still too paranoid to sit down at my computer again. I tried spraying randomly at the objects on my desk for a while until it appeared again... on top of my speaker. It was just there acting as if it owned the place. I tried spraying it again but it was fast and legged it down the wall and out of the room. My little bro is more manly than me with cockroaches and told me we had to kill it since our parents weren't home. So the hunt began and it was a few minutes before we found it. It was in a closet but it ran out into the open once the closet door was open. It had nowhere to run and we finally sprayed it down. The spray smelt quite a bit though(I was using a different spray than what I had to begin with in my room). The cockroach was upside down and spazzing. I was still shitting myself though because of the spazzes. I was paranoid that it was still alive and might get up later and come at us again. I wanted to spray it again. My bro however said that it was already dead and argued with me telling me that once its upside down its dead and that the legs can still move because they just do move after dying ,like how cockroach bodies move after losing their head, that sorta thing. In the end I didn't spray it again. My bro offered to step on the cockroach though. I said not to since it would dirty the thong(yeah got thongs inside the house) with the cockroach guts. So then he put a whole bunch of tissues on the cockroach so that the guts wouldn't get on the thong when he stepped on it. In the end he didn't step on it because he is a pussy too. So the cockroach was just left their with a whole bunch of tissues on top of it until my parents got home. I was still a little paranoid to go on the computer right after that.

Well yeah, that's it for my blog post. Thanks for reading guys :). Keep enjoying your holidays everyone!